trepidation
there are moments in my life when i think im going to die where i look up at the sky and realize that the sun will always be the same in some relative way but i will get older shorter of breath one minute closer to death in those moments, i count how many people I've ever loved i wonder if they'll count me into the number of tragedies that ruined their day next to their spilt coffees and paper cuts i think about how in these moments, my thoughts are worth more than a dime agitation and trepidation all i've ever touched, all i've ever seen, this is all my life would have ever been impactful lives are a cliche when the world ends, people won't remember Marlyn Monroe or Barack Obama they'll remember Gd, taxes, and vodka in these moments, my problems will fade away maybe heaven and hell are the same my sins wont be used in my eulogy my good deeds will be forgo...